today. so dark. so gloom. so cold.
but guess what? the sight of my friends cheers me up like sunshine.
even though school sometime sucks. and life doesnt seem worth living for at that moment.
BUT
there's always someone like U that brings a smile on my face even when days are dark n stormy n even when i cant see whats ahead. life can be so vague at times. when i couldnt understand or get anything out of it. i ask myself questions. if life is so hard why dont i just give it up. i feel so painful i just wanna cut myself up. but then again. i am just being selfish. perhaps i should think again. life is so short. why do i make myself suffer.

sometimes i think if there is someone at school that cheers me up. then wenqi huiling edwin yun yun. you will all be the ones.

i went for treatment again. there is nothing to eat at changi hospital. i have to wait there and eat like all the fast food from the 7-11. i have to request help from my sis. she does not seems happy with me. but seriously i truly appreciate the effort of trying to slot in an appt for me at that time. and help me to do the billing thing. anyway hope i recover soon from all thse blisters~ one last treatment to go : )z haha.. ya la yang say no need to cut off flesh all the time. hmmm...

so i went home to sleep and yang came over to go running with me. then we run run run. and i happily think we lose some weights finally. :) he bought the white shoes from msia for me. yippie! so nice. but erm abit too big liao. but who cares la. i love it! muacks.

today i very happy okae. cos! i just like finish doing maths and studying lit.
then i log on computer. then i saw one friendster msg. at first thought muz be some lao tiko again want make friends haha..
then i saw this msg from my long long ago pri sch best friend.
but anyway i am so touched. i truly am! i really like.. aiya is not like i have many close friends or very popular but i know there are ppl who cares la. but the point is.. and who else will like bother to truly read my blog. somemore i didnt even mention much in the blog too. so thanks wei yu. u light up my day in the night. ^_^

and of cos there are also so n so that i love. like xcitez who bombard me with msg and calls but i truly really thank all these ppl. hope the ghost in ur com will disappear soon.

i really blessed. blessed with a boyfriend who can stand my crazyness. even when i shout at u screamed at you to go away. you aRE always there. even when things goes so wrong and i just want you to leave. you gotten so hurt but u insist wanna be there. you forgo ur own pride and injuries of heartache that i've caused you to sooth my soul and calm my temper. to wait for me to be better. i'll remember by heart by mind by soul.

blessed with good friends too. even though many a times we have disagreements in life. you are all just part of it. we are all growing up together everyday. so forgive me if i'm wrong. i'm not perfect. love me as i am just like i love you as you are : )Z

i am blessed with a home. even though things are really bad now. and i'm giving up so much hopes. but how to turn away from them when they are ur closest mates. i just hope things will be better. i really pray hard for things to change....

good night. i love myself too :)